Trance

April 12, 2004

As I sat in the presence of the Lord, I found myself going through the stars in the universe many times, not knowing what I was doing there or the purpose of it all. I would look around and enjoy what I was seeing.

One time, I looked and saw angels, really big angels, engaged in hand to hand combat with large demonic beings. These angels and demons I knew were not the usual earth dwelling beings, but those who were assigned to the big realms if you will. There were two angels overcoming each demonic being, and the battle was won by the angels somewhat easily. There were just a couple of these groupings. What I felt as I saw this, I felt such a surge of energy flow through me, and the thought came to me! If the church only realized what was happening in the heavenlies, we would be so exhilarated and encouraged and we would be so much BUSIER!

That was such a delight and encouragement to me. More than a year went by, and I continued every now and then to go out into the stars. Sometimes the stars would be swirling around, in a circle left to right, and then sometimes they would be swirling in the opposite directions right to left. When I asked the Lord about this, He said sometimes you’re coming and sometimes you’re going. I then realized that there was indeed movement for me. Then I started to understand that I could extend my spirit forward, put it in drive if you will and begin to travel.

I will say at this time, that this could almost happen at will when I sat in one particular chair in my living room where I always sit in the presence of the Lord. Almost without exception, when I sat in this chair, and began to worship the Lord, and enjoy great intimacy with Him, the heavens would open up to me.

So, I began to hunger for more than just looking at stars, although beautiful and intriguing, I thought there must be more. To me now, I believe I was extremely slow in hungering for this. I believe most people would have caught on much more quickly. Maybe not. When you move into the realm of the Spirit and are confronted with the things of the Lord, even in biblical examples, any of humanity tends to become a bit stupid. I do not say this in an earthy or condescending sense. When the Lord or an angel asks a question of us, it is not to get information from us that they did not have. Yet on earth, we answer with such eloquence and appeal, on the other side of the veil, it is a whole different story.

So one particular night, in the middle of a 40 day fast, I asked the Father that I would see whatever it is that he wanted me to see. Immediately I began to see the color red. Well, I began in renewal in the mid 90’s seeing blue, the lovely color of the substance of the Father’s love. I so enjoyed this for years… it so intrigued me, comforted me, enveloped me and encouraged me. For years I would see the breath of God breathing this upon me, then I in turn would breathe it back to Him. Until I realized one day that this blue was also a cloud and that if I pressed in a bit, I would go through this blue cloud and break out into the universe. That took me probably 4 or 5 years to figure out. A bit slow.

So when I saw red, I did not know what it meant. Then He took me closer, and as I came closer, I saw that the red was a fire. There were waves of fire as if blowing in a wind. Then I saw people in the fire, and they were STRESSED. Oh Lord Jesus, what is this, I do not want to see hell!!! No, this was not hell. He answered me; He said it was the furnace of affliction. One man in the fire had his eyes bulging from stress… oh, I recognized that stress. I had felt this many times in the last 8 months and had not been able to escape it. At first I thought I was continually being attacked by the devil and maybe had sin or something that allowed this to continually happen to me, and kept rebuking it. Then the Lord gave me the revelation through a vision that it was His Hand that was pushing me down into the earth to die. That I was as a seed, and that I kept rebuking His Hand and fighting Him, and He showed me His Hand on me pushing me down and me rebuking His Hand and I heard, except a seed fall to the ground and die, it bears much fruit. He said, “Yield to My Hand.” Ug. Ok, Lord. So when I saw the furnace of affliction, it was very familiar to me. The look on the people’s faces, I was very familiar with, I knew what they were feeling. Only God can put you in this position, not man, not you, not the devil. He knows the buttons in our lives that need to be pushed, and only He can push them like that to bring our soul to the point of death and surrender. This may seem contrary to popular Christian teaching, but is in complete alignment with the cross.

With all that said, I saw the people in the furnace of affliction, then the Lord backed me up a bit to see a bigger picture of what was happening. The flames became hairs, still blowing in the wind. And as I continued to be pulled back away from the furnace I was able to see that the hairs of red, that were the flames, were the mane of a Lion. And the people in the fire were actually in the mane of the Lion, Who was the Lion of the Tribe of Judah. Oh, the beauty of this Lion. I was looking at His side profile of His Head, and He was looking to the right. The Majesty, the Royalty, the Power, the Sovereignty of Him. People in the furnace of affliction may sometimes feel that He is so far from them, but the reality is is that He is so near, that they are even in His mane, the mane of Lion of the tribe of Judah. This was amazing to me.

The lion was then approached by a tiger. There was a fierce confrontation, and a violent battle ensued. The Lion ferociously won the victory over the tiger. The main characteristics of this encounter were violence and victory. The Lion of the tribe of Judah is a valiant, courageous and victorious warrior.

Then I saw the mane of a horse, the neck and the mane of a white horse. This mane also was blowing in a wind, and although I did not see the horse’s head, the horse was facing the same way as the Lion. It was lovely. Then I saw hair, and it was Jesus, He also was facing to the right, and His hair was also blowing in the wind. To look at Him was so lovely, and an intense and intimate love was in the atmosphere and I so desired to be with Him. In my spirit, I knew this represented intimacy with Him, as I lovely gazed upon Him, and His lovely hair blowing in a wind, I was speechless.

When I saw the neck and mane of the horse, I knew I would ride that horse some day. It was a much shorter time that I looked upon the horse, and Jesus as a man. I knew it represented the future, but did not immediately understand. Days later, I was cleaning our church, vacuuming to be precise, when the Lord spoke to me and said that this was in chronological order for me. That I had been in the mane of the Lion, that I would have to ride the white horse, then I would enter into experience with Jesus in the Spirit, more real than anything I’d ever experience on earth so far.

I had recently finished reading The Torch and the Sword, by Rick Joyner. I had understood that to ride this white horse, you must teach others to ride it without even knowing how to ride it yourself. Hmmm. Ok, Lord, I don’t know what to do, lead me to teach others to ride this white horse.

One day, during a Sunday morning service, I had several visions; the white horse was brought to me by the Lord. There were white clouds everywhere, we were on them. I looked at the horse and was a bit intimidated and unsure, not understanding the purpose of the white horse, where to ride, where to go. I have a horse, and am unable to ride her for various reasons, several years in a row she had been lame. I have been asking the Lord to allow me to ride. Living in an area where horses abound, friends, neighbors, church family all having many horses, would some of them please invite me to ride. This I have been earnestly asking the Lord for years. This He has denied me, now He says to me this is because this is the horse He wants me to ride.

I am still unsure for some reason. Then, we are riding on the clouds, Jesus and I riding this horse together. Galloping, galloping, together. Previously, I had had a vision of clouds like this. The clouds were covering the earth completely, except with great white mountain peaks coming up out from them here and there. There were groups of people on the mountain tops in various places. These I understood to represent people groups of churches in the spirit who were given domain over regions. We were to reside upon the mountain tops, but go down under the cloud cover, minister, bring life to those under them, and come back up to receive life and refreshment from the Lord. It was clear that we must reside upon these mountain tops, for here was our refreshment and life and our very survival depended upon this.

When Jesus and I were galloping together, I sensed, but did not altogether experience it, or remember it very well, that we galloped down under the clouds and then came back up. This I believe happened again and again. The white horse was extremely white, awesome. The clouds from above were extremely white, the light, the glory, the horse, all were a brilliant white. I remember that Jesus and I rode this horse together, we were joyful, extremely so, laughing, close, together, intensely loving and enjoying each other and riding really, really fast. The wind was also present. Jesus was so close to me, with His arms around me, I was so comforted, and blessed. He was in control of the horse.

I did not know what all this meant still. It was another experience in the Spirit realm for me. So much of these I have not connected with what happens in the natural, but I am learning.

So, I begin to teach and share of the experience of the Lion, the Horse and the Lord, which I fully intended to keep to myself, because I did not fully know what to do with it, or for what purpose exactly I had experienced it. Immediately then after teaching on these things, the heavens opened up in the services and the intense Presence of the Lord was felt and the manifestation of the stargate, the universe opening up, the ceiling of the church was gone and there was the heavenlies awaiting exploration. Everyone just hit the floor. Everything stopped, and we all just got lost in the Presence of Jesus. Quite taken by surprise.

Well, Jesus apparently looked fondly upon this teaching. Let me ponder this for a while. He spoke to me, laying on of hands (for a season anyway), was not to be done. If they can’t receive this from the atmosphere, without the laying on of hands, they can’t have it, He said.

I went to another region, to the Heartland of our nation. The Lord said teach them how to enter into this. There are many aspects to this, love for God, holiness, purity, faith, forgiveness, freedom from offense, these are all a part of this… but first, foremost and the only way here is through the cross, through Jesus, who is the Door, the Way, the Truth and the Life, and we go to the Father only through Him. All others who enter in by another way are thieves and robbers. So He instructed me also to disallow any entry to this realm except through Christ and Christ alone, and gave me authority to do so, this I did as He instructed. Again, the ecstasies of God came, the Glory, I could have remained in that place forever. God is showing up when I share about this.

These intense experiences followed an intense revelation of the cross. We don’t need any comfort from doing the works of the Lord to make us acceptable to God, only the cross makes it possible for us to boldly approach the Throne of Grace. You’ll never enter into this place without grasping what the cross did for you. The cross alone is adequate to pay for your sins. You don’t need to feel bad for a time after making mistakes/sin either, except that the emotion allow you to avoid that behavior again. It is not required to be depressed or drag around (pay for your sin) for days after inadvertently sinning. Confess it, trust Him, He is most certainly faithful and just to forgive your sin and cleanse you from all unrighteousness. MOVE on into His works in obedience. It is my prayer to walk in the works prepared beforehand for me to walk in, no more, no less.

Then one night, I sat in my chair… again, the heavens were opened to me, and I was in them. Oh my, the activity. I saw and saw and saw and saw. Angels, lights, waves with lightenings, I was alerted to a demonic presence that was in my home. I bound it, and cast it out of our home, and immediately I saw in the spirit this being bound with many, many cords so that it could hardly move walking out our long driveway and out through our gate and off our property. There seemed to be an angelic being hovering a bit overhead over seeing this. The Lord spoke to me and said this is what happens when my people use the authority that I have given them.

I saw an angel, and I believe that this was my angel that I saw. As I looked at him, a demon tried to interrupt this vision and distract me and the demon wanted my attention. This particular evening, I stayed up till 6:00 a.m. with the Lord, and there were several demonic distractions and I had to choose who and what would receive my attention. I had to do this by faith. I had to make a conscious decision to push demonic distractions aside, and disallow them also to be involved with my entering into what God had for me. This was relatively new for me, but, I am learning. I close my eargates and eyegates to the realm of the enemy, to witchcraft and by faith in Jesus and His blood continue seeing what the Father is presenting to me. This didn’t take long, and was not a particularly big effort.

Then I saw muscle tissue, like what you would see in an encyclopedia of the human body when they are teaching about the muscular system. Jesus showed me muscle tissue, a lot of it, it was striated, and I had the specific impression that I was to note that there was not ANY flesh on this muscle tissue. He said there is strength coming to those who have overcome the flesh. Strength coming without the flesh! This is very interesting to me because through out this process the Lord had been teaching me about the flesh being at enmity with the Spirit, and I had gone through several fairly irritating things to be able to subdue my flesh that it might be silent while I entered into these experiences that Jesus was wanting to take me in for oh so long. Then the muscle tissue, with it’s striations turned into net, which I immediately understood to be for the harvest.

These things were among several things that I saw. I went to bed later that night. As I lay in my bed, the ceiling of my room opened up and I began to see lights every where, and blue flame, it looked like blue flame or water coming down, but I would describe it as blue flame. The lights were everywhere mixed in this flame. Then there were the stars, then it was like we were under water. There were bubbles or coins or something EVERYWHERE. I still don’t know what those things were. There were millions of them. All this I was seeing with my eyes open. This came as effortlessly as possible. There were things in the spirit everywhere I looked. It was a phenomenal experience.

I went to the living room to sit in the presence of the Lord and continued to have these experiences. I remember going to bed at 6:00 a.m.

Mary Ann Adams